setbacks

The person I want to be is outgoing, considerate, able to do more than one activity (if not at the same time, because that's just crazy, at least in parallel). She's a self-starter who acts instead of just reacting. Also, she calls when she's going to be late (or not show up), instead of freezing in denial.

The person I am is seeming kind of far away from that at the moment. Shit.

(She also doesn't feel so sorry for herself when she occasionally screws up, but that's another story.)

[Edit: And she also doesn't start crying at her desk over one missed commitment and one inconsequential missed fact-check. What the hell is wrong with me today?]

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Met Cranky for lunch and she did an emergency psychic patch job. Thanks, hon, and sorry for snivelling all over you.

Then I bought a sunflower in a pot.

Thanks for the good wishes, everyone. I clearly have some Issues and some stress to work on, but I think I'll survive the week. And I'll go get a haircut -- that will help.

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Incidentally, if someone offers you any watermelon soup... it looks pretty (if bizarre), and I liked the ice cubes floating in it, but really, it's an idea that should've stayed theoretical.