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electricland ([personal profile] electricland) wrote2005-05-16 09:47 pm

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I guess that answers the question of "Do they turn the lights out at night here?" You know, if anybody was wondering.

Am I just the slowest writer ever, or what? It's taken me until now to produce a 1300-word article out of 8 pages of interview notes and the Centre for Evidence-Based Medicine's website. I don't think this is entirely due to spending too much time on LJ.

On the bright side, I think the article reads pretty well. On the not-bright side, it's a quarter to 10 and I've been here 12 hours, so am I even able to judge at this point?

And I haven't had dinner, either. I think I deserve a taxi home.

I believe this is where [livejournal.com profile] raithen steps up and gives me the stern look. I deserve it, too.

*Ster....* ah, fuck it...

[identity profile] raithen.livejournal.com 2005-05-17 07:13 am (UTC)(link)
Honey, I love you and no you aren't the slowest writer in the world and sometimes these things just take time. Too goddamn much fucking time. And I am Not. Giving. my life up. And I don't want you to have to, either. But this is a rare thing in your new job. You have balance, and as long as this doesn't become habit, accept that it happened. And take the time off in lieu later in the week or whenever.

I am up and on Mom's computer at midnight because I went to Aikido and it was wonderful. And then we (the boy, sensei P, R and I) went for coffee and chatted and it was fun and it was hard and it got me to thinking. ANd I called R about something and wound up getting mad, and called the boy and cried about R and other stuff and then we had a lovely chat. IT was nice. And I am glad I called but this stupid script is still telling me I shouldn't have and I should be asleep and I am not and you know what? So be it. I enjoyed the call. I *KNOW* we are friends, he and I. Just like you and I are. I trust you and I love you (though not yet him, trust, maybe)and I want you to be happy and I am sorry you had to work late. But don't question yourself or your abilities. What is, is. :D. It's a crappy night on TV anyway.

Just be. I wanna feel guilty about still being up and I know it will impact tomorrow, but so be it. I enjoyed and learned from the chat with M. Just like you worked late = so be it! You got the job done and that is cool! and 12 hours is better than 18.

And apparently I am still in babble mode. {{hugs}}

Re: *Ster....* ah, fuck it...

[identity profile] electricland.livejournal.com 2005-05-17 02:23 pm (UTC)(link)
hee! thank you. *hugs back*

I didn't ask, but are you planning to come out here for graduation?

Re: *Ster....* ah, fuck it...

[identity profile] raithen.livejournal.com 2005-05-17 02:37 pm (UTC)(link)
no, cuz it's the same weekend (well the thurs before) the only gaited horse show in our area all year. Plus., 'spensive. I'd love to come see you all, but this just doesn't look promising. Also. I am so. tired. this morning. Plus crampy and thinky.