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Tralkish behaviour Saturday night. Have come to terms, thank you to all who helped. Here's the (slightly edited) summary:

OK, analysis. Why, and what can I do about it?

1. Alcohol, me: bad combo. Learn to recognize this. Stop earlier or don't start at all.

2. Not enough practice with the flirting thing, and more importantly, calling a halt to the flirting when it's time. "Know when to draw the line", as Labatt's put it.

3. Inability to focus the flirting. (Was not INTERESTED in this guy! In fact, was interested in someone completely different! And yet.)

4. Residual low self-esteem: "Wow, somebody I find vaguely attractive is actually interested in me! I must respond in kind!" DEFINITELY need to work on this one... especially since I'd already managed to attract the one I really want. Jeez.

5. Hazy personal boundaries. Very bad. Note to self: reread "The Good Girl's Guide to Bad Girl Sex", with special emphasis on the ethical behaviour sections. Pay attention.

OK, I'm done beating myself up now. On the positive side:

1. Nobody got hurt.

2. I'm never gonna see him again. He's from out of town! Fabulous! At least (with the exception of Mike) when I embarrass the hell out of myself like this, I do manage to keep it fairly anonymous.

3. I got N's phone number! [open idiot teenager]And have been sleeping with it under my pillow ever since.[/idiot teenager] Really hope this goes somewhere. [open random lust attack]I reeeeeally want him.[/random lust attack]

4. J and P both think it's perfectly fine and really K does too (although I did NOT obey the Code, which saith Hands Off The Guy Your Friend Likes, BAD Rob. Sorry again, K). (Or if not perfectly fine, at least not worth spending any more thought or emotional energy on.)

So that's it for the obsessing.

Happy news: Basem Boshra says "I'll see what I can do"! Fingers crossed, everyone!

Goodnight...